Boy, what a good day yesterday but busy. Organized my band for the circus well the uniforms...and got in gear for the renessance feast at work. Also, watched/listened to david's last pep band performance. It was nice and enjoyed visiting with Charolyn and Beth, two old friends of mine.
AND I was invited to speak to high school christian group before school. I'm not sure what I'll say to them. I only have like 5 minutes. So I want to get in whatever God needs to say to them through me.
Good day all who view.
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Tuesday Morning
Well, had a teacher meeting to reschedule things from the ice storm but as it turned out very few events were effected. Still having the royalty dress up day on friday with the feast and the circus in March. I don't like putting on the circus but once it happens it is nice. We just worry too much about the unexpected things that will be out of our control once all the parents are there. My part is the circus band. I'm in charge of them. They go out after each act. It really is a marvelous thing. We do it with prek but it was designed for 1st n 2nd graders.
I'm asking for references. Gosh that feels funny especially when I'm so insecure. I'm scared they will give me a bad one. And evaluation today. I'm really worried. One of my walkins was really not great. So, but all these years I've had pretty good ones.
A new group. A little exciting. I'm also enjoying the other groups I'm in especially the ones sending me these neat stats.
Hurting Hearts, something died in my heart but the desire to keep in touch with the closest ones. It is bringing out insecurities. Do I still fit in. What am I to all these women?
Enough. All that matters is who I am with God. And I know I am His Child and He is my Lord and Savior. Enough said enough to know.
Monday, February 23, 2009
Happy Monday
Good morning. Wow the day is improving. I got up sad and upset from H.H. discord. Maybe it will fade but I'm so worried. I love these girls and sometimes this something people surface with bizarre issues and I'm not sure I handle it well.
It is in God's control, now.
Last night's sleep, well it just didn't exist so today, I'm tired. But God gives us new opportunities every day and I pray I use them as He intends.
Jennifer
It is in God's control, now.
Last night's sleep, well it just didn't exist so today, I'm tired. But God gives us new opportunities every day and I pray I use them as He intends.
Jennifer
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Basketball game
So I probably look like I'm not having fun. I'm there for david. It's hard to get there, emotionally and energeticly. I'm tired and I just don't want to be in all the buzzers and noise and need to socialize when I'm so unsure of what others are thinking as the sit behind me or see me coming up the steps.
But as the offering Cindy sent in the powerpoint is said, what others think of you is really none of your business. Really I can't change the hearts whether it is good or bad. Only you father can change the hearts of whoever is thinking badly of me or dreads seeing me coming. I can just walk in knowing God walks with me and anyone should be blessed to have a pair sitting next to them wrapped up in one. Jesus inside, me on the outside.
So my dear ones at hurting hearts, father your dear ones are truly hurting. Everything from marraige, to grief to family strife. You are in the midst of them, you are there, they know it but it would be nice for them to have you just phenominally visible to them, you want our faith whter you are visible or not, but when you give us glimpses or even glorious visions they really help to have a memory and helps with hope and faith that you are there when we can't see you. Did you send Jesus so we could see you as human helping us to believe even with him not hear you are there. You are real you are acting still in our world just as you were then. You could've sent another into the world, He may be here right now. We don't know. Just as in Jesus' time the word just gradually spread. And just as in Jesus time there was so much falsehood, it is hard to know and believe anyone who would claim as such.
But we don't know and until then we believe in your son, your only son from heaven and know we are your sons and daughters here on earth if we believe in your son will, too have a home with you some day.
Until then, give me words father, heart, to be there for those in hh who are in such pain. Keep me quiet when all that is needed is a simple I'm praying and I love you. And we can say that and it won't be misinterpreted into a different more twisted kind of love. Your love. Jesus love.
my children father the ones I leave to go back to their parents, father give them desire to get along and learn so they can be whatever YOU want them to be. Not just seeking money for power and earthly success but success in glorifying you.
Amen
But as the offering Cindy sent in the powerpoint is said, what others think of you is really none of your business. Really I can't change the hearts whether it is good or bad. Only you father can change the hearts of whoever is thinking badly of me or dreads seeing me coming. I can just walk in knowing God walks with me and anyone should be blessed to have a pair sitting next to them wrapped up in one. Jesus inside, me on the outside.
So my dear ones at hurting hearts, father your dear ones are truly hurting. Everything from marraige, to grief to family strife. You are in the midst of them, you are there, they know it but it would be nice for them to have you just phenominally visible to them, you want our faith whter you are visible or not, but when you give us glimpses or even glorious visions they really help to have a memory and helps with hope and faith that you are there when we can't see you. Did you send Jesus so we could see you as human helping us to believe even with him not hear you are there. You are real you are acting still in our world just as you were then. You could've sent another into the world, He may be here right now. We don't know. Just as in Jesus' time the word just gradually spread. And just as in Jesus time there was so much falsehood, it is hard to know and believe anyone who would claim as such.
But we don't know and until then we believe in your son, your only son from heaven and know we are your sons and daughters here on earth if we believe in your son will, too have a home with you some day.
Until then, give me words father, heart, to be there for those in hh who are in such pain. Keep me quiet when all that is needed is a simple I'm praying and I love you. And we can say that and it won't be misinterpreted into a different more twisted kind of love. Your love. Jesus love.
my children father the ones I leave to go back to their parents, father give them desire to get along and learn so they can be whatever YOU want them to be. Not just seeking money for power and earthly success but success in glorifying you.
Amen
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
monday
My days are I guess gonnabe about the previous day as I'm journaling first thing in the mornings. Yesterday was ok. There was the endless debate, for prek, do we focus on the ways of early childhood or the pressure from those who work with older kids. Kindergarten has already gone to more of a primary school point of teaching so now we are supposed to be kindergarten.
And what about the children? My first and formost job has nothing to do with curriculum. It's showing them the love of Christ so they can go into the world knowing they are loved by someone all the time. Trying to do that and remain "legal
" doesn't go hand in hand but I guess it's a risk worth taking. Fortunately, we haveChristian at least one administrator. So play my music and maybe just maybe they will hear Your voice of assurance in it and when they are at home with parents yelling, being tied up in their own turmoils they can turn to You for comfort and sometimes company in a lonely world.
And what about the children? My first and formost job has nothing to do with curriculum. It's showing them the love of Christ so they can go into the world knowing they are loved by someone all the time. Trying to do that and remain "legal
" doesn't go hand in hand but I guess it's a risk worth taking. Fortunately, we haveChristian at least one administrator. So play my music and maybe just maybe they will hear Your voice of assurance in it and when they are at home with parents yelling, being tied up in their own turmoils they can turn to You for comfort and sometimes company in a lonely world.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Good Morning
Ok, I'm ready. I've spent time with the Heavenly Father, You lord. Journaling on paper and reading scripture about when God scattered the people into different nations and languages. Reminding me that today isn't about work of pride but about asking Your guidance and doing what You guide to do. Help me to seek you well I seek you now, but as we progress through the day, help me seek which ways to go, to be silent or to speak, and what words to use. You pick them and control my mouth to speak them. No unkind words about others or myself.
Good day,
Jennifer
Good day,
Jennifer
Sunday, January 4, 2009
morning thoughts
These were many as poured out in H.H. Tomorrow as I face humans face to face, I'll face insecurities as we pound through our teaching and it's results. We meet and compare and go through how to improve our children's successes. Wow they are only 4-5 and we are measurethem with numbers. Kind of sad but necessary to compete in world education and worldy competition.
But these precious children, some have never heard of God or been given opportunity to pray. So I know your will for them and me as a teacher is to somehow through legalities of public school to instill the love You have for them.
Boy I am in need of seeing the love you have for me. Why is it that in online group of HH that is so easy and in the workplace and other areas it is hard to find strength and assurance from you and not seek it from others.
Of course living at peace with others is in your word. Help me to do that, with those who love me back and with those whose love i have no idea of nor may receive none.
Ag these insecurities rise as I go through the day and sense tomorrow approaching. What shall I do to alleviate it and seek your peace for this last day of rest?
The piano. I'll meet you there.
But these precious children, some have never heard of God or been given opportunity to pray. So I know your will for them and me as a teacher is to somehow through legalities of public school to instill the love You have for them.
Boy I am in need of seeing the love you have for me. Why is it that in online group of HH that is so easy and in the workplace and other areas it is hard to find strength and assurance from you and not seek it from others.
Of course living at peace with others is in your word. Help me to do that, with those who love me back and with those whose love i have no idea of nor may receive none.
Ag these insecurities rise as I go through the day and sense tomorrow approaching. What shall I do to alleviate it and seek your peace for this last day of rest?
The piano. I'll meet you there.
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